For several seconds, I couldn't answer.
Kyle's breathing came through the phone in uneven bursts.
I looked at the blanket spread across my knees.
"You knew?" I asked.
"Not exactly."
"What did you know?"
"That Dad had something for the baby."
I closed my eyes.
Frank had made me promise.
That promise had felt simple when he was alive.
Now it seemed cruel.
"He told me not to say anything," I said.
"Why?"
"I don't know."
Kyle gave a short, humorless laugh.
"That's not true."
I opened my eyes.
He had inherited that habit from his father. When Kyle knew someone was avoiding the real answer, he became very quiet.
"Your father believed some things should be discovered instead of explained."
"That sounds like Dad."
"He wanted the baby to find it."
"Find what?"
I looked at the seam.
"I haven't opened it."
There was silence.
"You haven't?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because he asked me not to."
Kyle exhaled.
Then he whispered, "Mom, I need you to open it."
I almost said no.
Not because I didn't want to know.
Because once the seam was opened, the promise would be over.
Frank would never be able to tell me whether I had done the right thing.
I ran my finger over the tiny stitches.
"Come tomorrow," I said.
"Tomorrow?"
"It's late."
"I can come now."
"No."
"Mom—"
"Come in the morning."
He went quiet.
Then he said, "Okay."
Before we hung up, I heard Madison in the background.
Her voice was faint.
"Who are you talking to?"
Kyle didn't answer her.
The line went dead.
I sat at the kitchen table for another hour.
I didn't sleep much that night.
At five in the morning, I made coffee and opened the curtains.
The street was gray with early light.
I thought about Frank.
He had been very specific about the blanket.
Not the baby.
Not Kyle.
The blanket.
"Make it something nobody would throw away," he had said.
At the time, I had laughed.
"You know people don't appreciate handmade things the way they used to."
He had looked at me over his glasses.
"Then make it impossible to misunderstand."
I hadn't understood what he meant.
Now I wondered if he had.
At eight fifteen, Kyle arrived.
He looked as though he had barely slept.
His shirt was wrinkled. His hair was still damp. He stood in the doorway with both hands shoved into his jacket pockets.
"Can I come in?"
"You don't need to ask."
He stepped inside.
His eyes immediately found the blanket on the table.
He stopped.
"That's it."
I nodded.
He approached slowly.
"Did Madison know?"
"About the pocket?"
"About anything."
"No."
Kyle rubbed his face.
"She said it was ugly."
I looked at him.
"She didn't know what it was."
"I know."
He sat down.
For a moment, neither of us spoke.
Then he said, "I should have stopped her."
I didn't answer.
"I should have walked over when she threw it away."
"You were embarrassed."
"I was ashamed."
The distinction mattered.
I poured him coffee.
He didn't touch it.
"Mom, what did Dad say?"
I told him about the envelope.
I told him about the photograph.
I told him that Frank wanted the baby to find something when he was old enough to understand what it meant.
Kyle listened without interrupting.
When I finished, he stared at the blanket.
"Can we open it?"
I nodded.
I brought my sewing scissors from the drawer.
The little metal blades were duller than I remembered.
I turned the blanket over.
The pocket was on the inside, beneath the second row of blue sailboats.
Kyle leaned closer.
"How did you hide that?"
"I've had practice."
He almost smiled.
Then the smile disappeared.
I slid the tip of the scissors beneath the seam.
The first thread snapped.
Then another.
The sound was tiny.
But Kyle flinched at every one.
Finally, the pocket opened.
Inside was a small envelope wrapped in clear plastic.
Kyle stared at it.
"That's Dad's handwriting."
I knew immediately.
The letters leaned slightly to the right.
Frank's handwriting.
The envelope had no name.
Only four words.
For the child who comes after me.
Kyle's eyes filled.
He reached toward it, then stopped.
"Mom?"
"What?"
"I don't think I can."
I took the envelope.
My fingers shook.
"We'll do it together."
I opened it.
Inside was a photograph.
Frank stood beside an old wooden desk.
The photograph had been taken decades earlier.
I recognized the room.
Our old house.
Before Kyle was born.
But there was something else.
A small brass key had been taped to the back of the photograph.
Kyle leaned forward.
"What is that?"
I turned the photograph over.
Under the key was another line in Frank's handwriting.
The drawer is still there.
Kyle looked at me.
"What drawer?"
I suddenly remembered.
A piece of furniture we had not seen in years.
The old desk Frank had kept in our basement.
The desk he had refused to throw away.
I had always assumed it was sentimental.
Now I wasn't sure.
Kyle stood.
"Where is it?"
"In storage."
"Where?"
I looked toward the hallway.
Then I remembered what had happened after Frank died.
Madison had insisted that the basement be cleaned before the baby arrived.
Several boxes had been moved.
Some things had been donated.
Others had gone into storage.
I felt a cold sensation move through me.
"Madison had the storage key."
Kyle's face changed.
He understood the problem immediately.
"If she knows about the desk…"
He didn't finish.
He didn't need to.
The little brass key lay between us on the table.
For the first time, the baby blanket no longer felt like a gift.
It felt like a trail.
Click here to continue reading: PART 3: The Old Desk Had Disappeared From Our House, and the Person Who Moved It Had Never Told Me Why
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