PART 18 – My Brother Finally Stopped Talking About the Phone Long Enough to Admit That His Anger Had Gone Too Far, but He Still Had Work to Do

The next conversation with my brother was quieter.

He called in the afternoon.

I answered after checking that I had time to speak.

For once, he didn't begin by accusing me of turning the family against him.

He asked how his son was feeling.

I told him the medical team was continuing to care for the injury and that the boy was resting.

My brother listened.

Then he said he had been thinking about what happened.

I waited.

"I shouldn't have handled it that way."

It was the first time he had said something that sounded like an acknowledgment without immediately blaming the phone.

I felt a small amount of relief.

But I didn't mistake one sentence for a complete change.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

He exhaled.

"I got angry. I went too far."

I let him continue.

He said the broken phone had upset him.

He said he had been frustrated with his son.

Then he stopped himself.

"I know that doesn't excuse it."

I looked down at the floor.

For the first time, he had separated his feelings from his actions.

It was a small step.

It mattered.

But it didn't erase what had happened.

I told him that his son had been frightened and that rebuilding trust would take time.

My brother said he understood.

I asked whether he had spoken with the people handling the case about what he needed to do next.

He said he was waiting for further guidance.

I encouraged him to follow it.

He became quiet.

Then he asked whether I thought his son would forgive him.

I couldn't answer that.

"I don't know," I said. "He may need time."

My brother sounded hurt.

"He's my boy."

"I know."

"I love him."

I believed that he might love his son.

But love alone could not make the child feel safe.

I tried to explain that without turning the conversation into another argument.

"If you want him to trust you again, you have to take his fear seriously."

My brother didn't answer immediately.

Then he asked what that meant.

I told him it meant accepting that the child might not want contact right away.

It meant not blaming him for the broken phone.

It meant not asking him to make his father feel better.

And it meant learning how to respond to anger without frightening or hurting anyone.

My brother sighed.

"You make it sound easy."

"I don't think it's easy."

He seemed surprised by that answer.

I told him that changing a pattern could be difficult.

But difficulty wasn't a reason to avoid it.

He said he didn't know where to begin.

I suggested he follow the guidance provided by the people involved and seek appropriate help to address his behavior.

I wasn't going to pretend I could fix him with a conversation.

He said he would think about it.

I accepted that as his answer.

Before we ended the call, he asked whether I was still angry with him.

I thought about the question.

Yes, I was angry.

I was also sad.

I was frightened about what the children might have experienced before I arrived.

And I was disappointed that my brother had put me in a position where protecting his son meant standing against him.

"I am angry about what happened," I said.

He went quiet.

"But I'm willing to see what you do next."

He didn't respond for several seconds.

Then he said he understood.

I wasn't sure he did.

But the conversation ended without another accusation.

That evening, I told my nephew that his father had asked how he was doing.

He was sitting on the bed with the dinosaur beside him.

"Is Dad still mad?"

I told him I couldn't know exactly what his father was feeling.

"But he's thinking about what happened," I added.

My nephew looked down.

"Is he sorry?"

I paused.

"He has said he shouldn't have hurt you."

The boy rubbed the dinosaur's scratched foot.

I waited for him to speak.

"Can I still be scared?"

The question nearly broke my heart.

"Yes," I said. "You can feel scared even if someone says they're sorry."

He nodded slowly.

"And you don't have to decide how you feel about seeing him until the people helping you have talked with you about it."

He looked at me.

"What if I miss him?"

"That's okay, too."

He was quiet.

Then he said he missed playing a game with his father.

I listened.

He told me about the game in short, uneven sentences.

He remembered sitting on the living room floor.

He remembered laughing when his father made a mistake.

He remembered being happy.

I didn't interrupt him by reminding him of the kitchen.

Those memories belonged to him.

He didn't have to give them up to acknowledge that he had been hurt.

When he finished, I told him it was possible to miss someone and still need protection from them.

He considered that for a long time.

Then he placed the dinosaur beside his pillow.

"Okay."

I stayed with him while he settled down.

I thought about my brother's admission that he had gone too far.

It was more than he had said before.

It was less than what the children needed.

I couldn't decide what he would do with that realization.

I could only wait and watch whether his actions began to match his words.

For once, I wasn't going to rush ahead and declare that everything was better because he had finally said something I wanted to hear.

The children had already been asked to accept too much too quickly.

I wouldn't ask them to do it again.

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