PART 17 – I Had Finally Found My Independence, but One Question About My Son Continued to Follow Me Wherever I Went

The days after the Sea Star's return were busy.

I had several responsibilities waiting for me.

The guest services department needed attention, and James wanted to review some of the company's operations.

I spent my mornings going through reports.

My afternoons were usually filled with meetings.

I was tired at the end of each day, but it was a good kind of tired.

I had something to work toward.

I also had a place to belong.

That meant more to me than I could explain.

One afternoon, I received a call from David.

I stared at his name for several seconds.

Then I answered.

"Hello, Mom."

His voice sounded different.

Not angry exactly.

More like someone who had been thinking about what to say.

I waited.

He asked how I was doing.

It was such a simple question.

Yet I almost did not know how to answer.

"I'm doing fine."

He paused.

Then he asked whether I had found somewhere to live.

I looked toward the window.

I thought about telling him everything.

I could have explained my position.

I could have told him about the company.

I could have reminded him that I was no longer sleeping in my Honda.

But I decided not to.

"I have things under control."

He did not ask where I was staying.

He did not ask whether I needed anything.

The conversation ended shortly afterward.

I put the phone down.

I was glad he had called.

But I was also disappointed.

I had hoped he might finally want to talk about what happened.

He had not.

I returned to my reports.

That evening, James asked whether I wanted to review the next operational schedule with him.

I agreed.

We discussed the upcoming work.

He listened to my suggestions.

I felt comfortable sharing my opinions now.

I was no longer afraid of making a mistake.

After the meeting, I thanked him.

He told me I was doing well.

I smiled.

For years, I had wanted to hear something like that from my own family.

Now I was receiving encouragement from someone who had known me before I became a mother.

Someone who remembered me as a young woman with dreams of her own.

That meant something.

I went back to my office.

The photograph of David was still in the drawer.

I did not take it out.

I had begun to understand that loving someone did not require me to revisit every painful memory.

I could leave the photograph where it was.

I could keep my memories.

And I could continue living.

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