PART 7 – After Marla Left, I Tried to Return to Our Ordinary Morning, but the Jacket on the Table Would Not Let Me Forget Her Reaction

I found Abby sitting on the edge of the sofa.

Her backpack was beside her.

She had taken off the jacket and folded it across her knees.

When she saw me, she immediately looked at my face.

"Is Aunt Marla mad at us?"

I sat beside her.

"She's upset, sweetheart."

"Because of what I found?"

I shook my head.

"You didn't do anything wrong."

Abby looked down at the jacket.

"I only wanted to see the pockets."

I put my arm around her.

"I know."

She leaned against me.

For a few moments, neither of us spoke.

Then she asked whether she would still be able to wear the jacket to school.

I looked at the coat in her lap.

Yesterday, that question would have made me smile.

Now I didn't know how to answer it.

"We'll work it out," I said.

It was the kind of promise I had learned to make when I didn't have a real solution.

Abby accepted it because she trusted me.

That trust made my chest ache.

I asked her to tell me exactly what had happened when she found the object.

She explained that she had put her hand inside the pocket while trying on the jacket.

At first, she thought there might be a loose thread.

Then her fingers touched something she hadn't expected.

She pulled it out.

And she had come straight to me.

"Did you notice anything else?" I asked.

She thought for a moment.

"No. Just that."

I nodded.

I didn't want to frighten her with more questions.

She was already trying to understand why her aunt had arrived at our home demanding the jacket back.

I couldn't give her an answer I didn't have.

I kissed her forehead.

"Let's get you ready for school."

She looked toward the front door.

"What about the coat?"

I glanced at the folded jacket.

"We'll leave it here for now."

She didn't argue.

That quiet acceptance hurt me more than a tantrum would have.

Abby had learned too early that sometimes adults changed the rules without warning.

I helped her put on her old coat.

The damaged cuff caught briefly on her sleeve.

She tugged it free and pretended not to notice.

I noticed.

Of course I noticed.

I wanted to give her a life where she didn't have to pretend not to notice things.

After she left for school, I returned to the kitchen.

The money Marla had brought was still on the table.

I counted it.

Eighty dollars.

Exactly what I had given her the day before.

For a moment, I considered putting it straight into my purse.

We needed the money.

There was no reason to leave it sitting there.

But I couldn't bring myself to touch it.

I kept thinking about how quickly Marla had offered it.

She had been willing to give up the money without a fight.

That was not the sister I knew.

The sister I knew would argue over a few dollars even when she could easily afford to let them go.

The sister I knew would remind me of every favor she had ever done.

Yesterday, she had treated the jacket as though it were a valuable possession.

Today, she wanted it back so badly that she had abandoned the money on my table.

I picked up my phone and looked at her name.

I could call her.

I could demand that she stop treating me like a child.

But I knew she would either deny everything or turn the conversation into another argument about my financial situation.

I put the phone down.

Then I picked up the jacket.

I examined the outside carefully.

The fabric looked worn in a few places, but otherwise it seemed fine.

I checked the zipper.

I ran my fingers along the seams.

I wasn't looking for anything specific.

I just wanted to understand what had frightened my sister.

The pockets were deeper than they appeared.

I remembered Abby saying that she liked how much space they had.

I slipped my hand into the one she had used.

There was nothing obvious to see.

I didn't want to pull at the lining or damage the jacket.

So I stopped.

I laid it on the table and stepped back.

For years, I had tried to keep my relationship with Marla from falling apart.

I had apologized when I wasn't wrong.

I had stayed quiet when she insulted me.

I had accepted less kindness from her than I would have accepted from almost anyone else.

I told myself that was what sisters did.

But Tom had once told me that being family didn't give anyone permission to hurt you.

I hadn't understood how right he was until I no longer had him beside me.

I looked at the jacket again.

I had bought it because I wanted Abby to be warm.

That was all.

I hadn't expected it to become a source of fear, or an argument, or a reason for my sister to rush to my home.

I picked up the money and placed it in a drawer.

Not because I had decided to keep it.

Because I didn't want to keep looking at it.

Then I returned to the table and sat down.

For the first time since the morning began, I let myself admit that I was genuinely afraid of what we might discover.

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