The following hours passed quietly.
I was still on duty.
There was no sudden celebration when we returned, and nobody treated the rescue like a personal achievement.
We had responded to an emergency.
We had worked with local responders.
We had done what needed to be done.
That was how I saw it.
I didn't know that the evening had been recorded by a local news crew.
I hadn't noticed how much footage they had captured.
There had been too many things happening.
The overturned bus.
The people coming through the emergency hatch.
The boy holding my jacket.
The tanker shifting in the wind.
Walt being carried away.
Those moments had been part of one long emergency for me.
For someone watching a camera, they might have looked very different.
I didn't think about television.
I didn't think about newspapers.
I didn't think about anyone recognizing me.
My attention remained on the work.
At some point, I checked my phone.
There were no messages from my father.
I wasn't surprised.
I hadn't called him either.
I looked at the screen for a moment before putting it away.
I wondered whether Christmas dinner had gone well.
I imagined the guests arriving.
I imagined Jason talking about his promotion.
I imagined my father introducing everyone.
Perhaps someone had asked why I wasn't there.
Perhaps he had simply said I couldn't make it.
I didn't know.
And I couldn't bring myself to ask.
I had spent too much time trying to understand what he wanted from me.
I wasn't going to spend Christmas Eve waiting for an explanation.
I returned to my work.
The base remained busy enough to keep my thoughts occupied.
Every so often, the events from the roadside came back.
I could still remember the way the bus looked when we first arrived.
I could still hear the wind pushing against the tanker.
I could still see Walt's face when he began talking about his youngest grandchild.
I had asked him about his family because I wanted him to keep talking.
But I also knew that family was something people held on to when they were frightened.
It was something familiar.
Something worth getting back to.
I understood that better than I wanted to admit.
For me, the thought of family had been painful that evening.
For Walt, it had given him something to talk about while we worked to free his leg.
I hoped he was doing better.
That was all I could offer him from where I stood.
Later, I noticed how tired everyone was.
The operation had demanded a great deal from the people involved.
The weather had made ordinary movements difficult.
The rescue had required concentration.
Nobody had been able to relax until the passengers and the driver were out of immediate danger.
I was grateful that the work had ended without losing anyone from the bus.
I didn't know what the next morning would bring.
I didn't know whether there would be more questions about the operation.
I didn't know whether anyone would contact us about the news footage.
At that point, none of those things seemed important.
I was simply glad to have returned safely.
I thought about going home again.
Not to my father's house.
Just home in the ordinary sense.
A quiet room.
A place to remove my boots.
A chance to sleep.
But Christmas was not finished yet, and there were still responsibilities to handle.
I stayed where I was needed.
My phone remained quiet.
I didn't send my father a Christmas message.
He hadn't asked me to come.
I wasn't going to pretend the conversation had never happened.
That might sound stubborn.
Maybe it was.
But I had spent years being the person who made things easy for everyone else.
That night, I didn't have the energy to do it again.
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