The following morning, I decided to watch my father carefully.
I didn't want him to notice.
I also didn't want Emily to feel that she had done something wrong.
So I acted normally.
I prepared breakfast.
I packed Emily's school bag.
I asked my father whether he wanted another cup of coffee.
Everything looked ordinary.
But I couldn't stop watching him.
George sat at the kitchen table with his usual cup.
He had barely touched his breakfast.
His right hand rested beside the plate.
And it was trembling.
Not slightly.
Enough that the spoon moved against the ceramic dish.
I noticed immediately.
"Dad, are you feeling okay?"
He looked up.
For a second, he seemed surprised.
Then he quickly moved his hand beneath the table.
"I'm fine."
"You don't look fine."
He gave me a small smile.
"Just an old man's hands."
I wasn't convinced.
"Have they been shaking like that for long?"
He reached for his coffee with his other hand.
"Nothing you need to worry about."
I wanted to ask more.
But Emily came running into the kitchen.
She was wearing her school uniform and carrying Mr. Buttons.
"Grandpa!"
My father immediately smiled.
"There's my girl."
She climbed onto the chair beside him.
Then she looked at him with complete innocence.
"Are we doing our game again today?"
The kitchen went quiet.
I turned toward her.
"What game, sweetheart?"
Emily looked at me.
Then she looked at Grandpa.
My father's expression changed.
The color seemed to disappear from his face.
He placed his cup on the table.
"Emily."
His voice was different.
Not angry exactly.
But serious.
She stopped moving.
He looked directly at her.
"We talked about not bringing that up when other people are around."
Emily lowered her head.
"Sorry, Grandpa."
I felt my stomach tighten.
I looked at my father.
"What exactly are you two talking about?"
He didn't answer immediately.
Instead, he picked up his napkin and wiped his mouth.
"It's just something between us."
I stared at him.
"Something between you and a seven-year-old child?"
He looked uncomfortable.
"You're making it sound strange."
"Then explain it."
He sighed.
"She's a child. We play little games. That's all."
I looked at Emily.
She wasn't smiling anymore.
Her fingers were wrapped around the rabbit's ears.
I had never seen her become so quiet around him.
Not once.
I wanted to continue questioning my father.
But I didn't want to frighten her.
So I helped her finish breakfast.
Then I took her to school.
During the drive, she talked about a drawing she wanted to make.
I listened.
I answered her questions.
But my mind kept returning to that sentence.
We agreed not to talk about that in front of other people.
Other people.
I was her mother.
Why was I being treated like an outsider?
After dropping Emily off, I returned home.
My father was sitting in the living room.
The television was on, but he wasn't watching it.
He was looking down at his hands.
I stood near the doorway.
"Dad, can we talk?"
He looked up.
"Of course."
I sat across from him.
"Emily told me something last night."
His face became still.
"What did she tell you?"
I watched him carefully.
"She said you have a game when you give her a bath."
He looked away.
I waited.
Then he rubbed his forehead.
"She's misunderstood something."
"What has she misunderstood?"
He didn't answer.
I leaned forward.
"Dad, she's frightened."
That made him look at me.
"Frightened?"
"She said you make strange noises. She said she heard you crying."
His eyes dropped toward the floor.
For several seconds, neither of us spoke.
Then he shook his head.
"She's too observant."
I frowned.
"What does that mean?"
"Nothing."
"Dad."
He slowly stood up.
"I'm getting old. That's all."
I watched him walk toward the hallway.
His steps were slower than I remembered.
He held one hand against the wall for support.
I almost called after him.
But I stopped myself.
There was something he wasn't telling me.
And I wasn't going to get the answer by asking the same question again.
That afternoon, I picked Emily up from school.
She seemed happy.
She told me about her teacher and a girl who had borrowed her crayons.
I listened carefully.
When we got home, Grandpa was waiting in the living room.
He had prepared a small snack for her.
Emily ran toward him.
He opened his arms.
She hugged him.
For a moment, everything looked normal again.
But I noticed something.
When he reached down to lift her, his knees seemed to give way slightly.
He quickly caught himself against the sofa.
Emily noticed too.
"Grandpa, are you okay?"
He smiled.
"Just a little tired."
She took his hand.
"Be careful."
I watched them.
Why was a seven-year-old girl so worried about her grandfather falling?
That evening, I prepared dinner.
My father offered to help Emily with her bath.
Normally, I would have accepted without thinking.
It was part of their routine.
But this time, I hesitated.
Then I remembered how quickly he had become defensive that morning.
I needed to know what was happening.
"That's okay, Dad. I'll finish in the kitchen first."
He nodded.
"All right."
Emily took Mr. Buttons and followed him upstairs.
I waited until I heard the bathroom door close.
Then I stood beside the kitchen counter.
I could hear the water running.
I tried to concentrate on the dinner.
But I couldn't.
A minute passed.
Then another.
I put down the knife.
I turned off the stove.
And I walked toward the stairs.
I wasn't sure what I expected to find.
But I knew I couldn't keep pretending nothing was wrong.
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