I heard the knock just after dinner.
Abby was in the living room, reading with her feet tucked beneath her.
I was rinsing a plate when the sound came again.
Three quick knocks.
I dried my hands and walked toward the door.
For a moment, I thought about pretending I hadn't heard.
Then I remembered how many times I had waited for Marla to decide when I deserved an answer.
I wasn't going to hide from her.
I opened the door.
Marla stood on the other side, holding her handbag with both hands.
She looked tired.
Not angry, as she had been that first morning.
Not impatient, either.
Just tired.
"Can I come in?"
I stepped aside.
She walked into the kitchen and stopped when she saw the chair where I had first placed the jacket.
The coat wasn't there anymore.
Her eyes moved toward the hallway closet.
I noticed.
She noticed me noticing.
Neither of us said anything.
I closed the door and followed her into the kitchen.
"Would you like some tea?"
She shook her head.
"No, thank you."
It was the first time in days she had thanked me for anything.
I sat opposite her at the table.
She placed her handbag on the floor beside her chair.
For a while, she looked at her hands.
I waited.
I had promised myself I would listen before judging her words.
But I wouldn't do all the work for her anymore.
Finally, she looked up.
"I know I've made a mess of this."
I folded my hands on the table.
"Yes, you have."
She flinched slightly.
I almost softened my answer out of habit.
Then I stopped myself.
There was no need to be cruel, but there was no reason to pretend either.
Marla glanced toward the hallway.
"Is Abby here?"
"She's in the living room."
"Does she know I'm coming?"
"She knows you wanted to talk."
My sister nodded.
She seemed to be choosing her words carefully.
"I don't want her to be frightened of me."
I looked at her for a long moment.
"Then you need to stop making her feel as though she's done something wrong."
Marla lowered her eyes.
"I know."
The answer came quietly.
I had heard those words from her before, but this time she didn't immediately follow them with an excuse.
I waited for her to continue.
She told me she had been wrong to speak about Tom the way she had.
She said she shouldn't have insulted me when I asked whether she would lower the price.
She admitted that taking my last eighty dollars without caring what it meant for Abby had been selfish.
I listened without interrupting.
Those were things I had wanted to hear for a long time.
But they weren't the reason she had come.
I leaned forward.
"Marla, I appreciate you saying that. But we still haven't talked about the jacket."
Her shoulders tightened.
"I know."
"Why did you want it back so badly?"
She looked toward the closet again.
"I can't explain everything yet."
I felt the familiar frustration rise.
I pressed my fingers against the edge of the table.
"Then what can you explain?"
She swallowed.
"I can tell you that I didn't think this through when I sold it."
I stared at her.
"You counted the money. You watched me hand it over. You had plenty of time to think."
"I know."
"Then something changed."
She didn't deny it.
That frightened me more than another argument would have.
I had been hoping she would finally tell me that I had misunderstood her.
Instead, she was admitting that there was something she still wasn't saying.
I took a slow breath.
"Did you know there was something inside the pocket?"
Marla looked directly at me.
"No."
I searched her face.
I couldn't tell whether I believed her.
She seemed to understand that.
"I know you don't trust me right now," she said.
"You're right. I don't."
Her eyes filled slightly, but she didn't look away.
"I understand."
I wanted to ask whether she understood how painful it had been to hear her talk about Tom as though his illness had been an inconvenience to her.
I wanted to tell her how much I had missed him during those long evenings when I sat alone with the bills.
But I didn't want this conversation to become another argument about the past.
I needed to know what happened next.
"Marla, I'm willing to listen. But I'm not going to keep pretending everything is fine."
She nodded.
"I wouldn't ask you to."
We sat in silence for a moment.
Then she asked whether she could see the jacket.
I didn't answer immediately.
I thought about Abby's frightened face.
I thought about Marla reaching for the coat without asking what her daughter had found.
Finally, I stood up.
"I'll get it."
I went to the hallway closet and took the bag from the shelf.
When I returned, Marla watched me place it on the table.
She didn't reach for it.
She simply looked at the folded material.
For the first time since she had sold it to me, she seemed unable to decide what to do with something she had once treated as hers to control.
I sat down again.
"The jacket is here," I said. "The money is here. Now I need the truth."
Marla nodded slowly.
And this time, she didn't ask me to stop asking.
Click here to continue reading: PART 22: I Put the Jacket Between Us and Asked My Sister to Tell Me What She Knew, Even If the Answer Changed Our Family Forever
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