The next few days passed without much peace.
Pam kept the financial papers close.
I kept the credit report in my folder.
Neither of us wanted to leave the problem unattended, but we didn't know how to move forward without another conversation with Jordan.
He called twice.
The first time, Pam spoke to him in the living room.
I stayed in the kitchen.
I could hear his voice but not every word.
Pam asked him to explain the accounts.
He talked for a while.
Then she asked about the money she had paid.
His voice grew quieter.
When the call ended, Pam came into the kitchen with her eyes red.
"He says he can make it right."
I was rinsing a cup at the sink.
"Did he say how?"
She shook her head.
I set the cup on the counter.
"Did he tell you how much he owes?"
"No."
I turned off the water.
"Then he hasn't explained how he plans to make it right."
Pam sat down.
She looked tired.
I was tired, too.
But tiredness couldn't become another reason to avoid the truth.
I asked whether Jordan had said anything about the casino charges.
She said he had admitted going to Oklahoma.
He had not given her a clear account of the money he spent.
He had simply repeated that he had gotten into trouble and would repay it.
I thought about the conversation I had overheard in the garage.
At the time, Jordan had spoken about another two thousand dollars as if it were just one more bill.
Pam had sounded worn down.
She had asked how much longer she would have to keep making payments.
Now I understood that she had been living with the arrangement for years.
She had become accustomed to the monthly amount.
Seven hundred dollars.
A figure small enough to sound manageable when discussed once.
Large enough to do lasting damage when repeated for years.
I sat across from her.
"We need the full records."
She nodded.
"I know."
"And we need Jordan to stop asking us to trust promises without showing us anything."
She looked toward the window.
"I don't know how to make him understand."
I had no easy answer.
He was an adult.
He knew what it meant to borrow money.
He knew what it meant to pay a bill.
He also knew the accounts weren't his to open under my name.
I couldn't make him understand something he had chosen to ignore.
All I could do was decide what I would accept.
That afternoon, I went to the office and reviewed the papers from the property sale.
The final documents were together in a neat stack.
I had signed them in Abilene.
I remembered the attorney's office, the table, and the careful way the transaction had been explained.
I remembered the drive to the cafe afterward.
I had ordered a chicken fried steak and sat by myself, thinking about what it meant to finish something I had worked on for decades.
There had been no celebration.
No announcement.
Just lunch and a quiet drive home.
I had imagined telling Pam when the time felt right.
I had imagined her asking what we should do first.
I had expected surprise, maybe a little disbelief.
I hadn't expected to sit at our kitchen table with a credit report bearing my name and an address connected to her son.
I put the sale documents back in their envelope.
The money was in my account.
That part was settled.
The family question was not.
When I returned home, Pam was sitting at the table.
The envelope of bank records lay in front of her.
She had written the monthly amounts on a separate sheet.
The list was uneven because she had added some figures later.
She pushed it toward me.
"I tried to calculate everything."
I read through it.
The total was consistent with what we had found before.
More than twenty-four thousand dollars had gone out of her retirement savings over nearly three years.
She watched me finish.
"I keep thinking about what I could have done with that money."
I folded the page carefully.
"I know."
"I could have left it where it was."
I didn't try to tell her not to feel bad.
She had lost something important.
There was no point pretending otherwise.
After a while, she asked whether the money from the sale would change how I felt about Jordan.
I looked at her.
"No."
She seemed surprised.
I explained that the amount in my account did not change what had happened.
If I had been a man with very little money, the accounts would still have been opened without my permission.
Pam's retirement savings would still have been used.
Jordan would still have told her that I was gambling.
The betrayal did not become smaller because I had money.
And it did not become larger because he had assumed I didn't.
She nodded slowly.
Then she asked whether I planned to tell Jordan the sale amount.
I considered the question.
I had kept the information private for my own reasons.
Now that Pam knew I had sold the properties, keeping the exact figure from her felt different.
She was my wife.
She deserved to know what our circumstances were.
But I also wanted to keep the conversation focused on what had happened.
I didn't want Jordan's debt to become a discussion about what I could afford to forgive.
"I'll tell you the amount," I said. "But I don't want it used to excuse what he did."
Pam looked at the envelope in front of her.
"I wouldn't do that."
I believed she meant it.
Still, I knew how complicated family loyalty could become when money entered the room.
I had seen people make excuses for relatives who repeatedly let them down.
I had done it myself.
I had excused Jordan's remarks because I wanted peace.
Pam had excused his secrecy because she wanted to protect me.
We had each allowed a different kind of silence to grow.
Now we had to stop.
I reached across the table and took her hand.
She held mine, though neither of us spoke.
The credit report remained in the folder beside me.
The sale documents were in another envelope.
One held the evidence of what had been taken from us.
The other held proof of what I had spent a lifetime building.
I knew I would have to explain both.
But I wasn't going to use the second envelope to make the first one disappear.
Click here to continue reading: PART 9: I Finally Told Pam What the Storage Properties Had Sold For, but the Number Could Not Repair What Had Happened Between Us
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