PART 10 – The Woman I Had Helped Through Nursing School Was Now Someone I Could Not Bring Myself to Defend

I hadn't heard Chloe's voice since the afternoon in the kitchen.

That bothered me more than I expected.

I had once been one of the people she turned to when she was frightened.

When she worried about school, she called me.

When she received good news, she wanted me to celebrate with her.

When she needed someone to listen, she knew I would make time.

I had never considered those conversations an obligation.

I enjoyed them.

I liked being included in her life.

But now I couldn't stop thinking about the distance between those memories and what had happened.

I wondered whether she had regretted it.

I wondered whether she had told herself that I had somehow deserved it.

I wondered whether she had even thought about my wrist afterward.

I didn't have answers.

And I was beginning to understand that I might never receive them.

One afternoon, I found an old nursing school photograph on my phone.

Chloe had sent it to me after one of her important school milestones.

She was smiling.

Her hair was neatly arranged, and she looked exhausted but happy.

I remembered congratulating her.

I remembered telling her she should be proud.

I had meant every word.

I didn't want to turn those memories into something ugly.

She had worked hard.

She had earned her place.

My support had helped her through some difficult moments, but the achievement belonged to her.

That was important to me.

I had never wanted to own her success.

I simply wanted to be part of the people who encouraged her.

I put the phone down.

Then I went to the kitchen and made tea.

I was beginning to recognize something uncomfortable about myself.

I had spent so much time defending the people I loved that I sometimes ignored what they were doing to me.

When Chloe needed help, I focused on her stress.

When Liam needed money, I focused on his difficulties.

When either of them was disappointed, I tried to understand their side.

But when I was hurt, I immediately wondered whether I had somehow caused the problem.

That wasn't fair to myself.

I could acknowledge that people had complicated emotions.

I could admit that I wasn't perfect.

But none of that changed the fact that I had been physically hurt.

And none of it explained why my son had chosen to tell me to stay away instead of asking whether I was all right.

I sat down with my tea.

For a moment, I considered sending Chloe a message.

I wanted to ask one question.

Why?

Why had she done it?

What had happened in her mind during those few seconds?

I opened a blank message.

I typed her name.

Then I stopped.

I didn't want to send something that would turn into another argument.

I didn't want to give either of them an opportunity to tell me that I was making things worse by speaking about the incident.

So I closed the message.

I was tired of trying to make people understand something they had not shown much interest in understanding.

A few days later, I received another update from the lender.

The application was still under review.

There was no final approval.

I saved the message and returned to what I had been doing.

I wasn't checking every hour anymore.

I had started to accept that the consequences of my decision belonged to the people applying for the mortgage.

I had done what was required on my side.

That evening, I sat near the window and watched the light fade.

I thought about the woman Chloe had been when I first met her.

I remembered how nervous she was about making a good impression.

I remembered telling her that she didn't need to impress me.

I wanted her to feel comfortable.

I wanted our relationship to be easy.

Perhaps that was why this hurt so much.

I had never thought of myself as someone who needed special treatment.

I only wanted the same ordinary consideration I tried to give others.

I wanted to be spoken to respectfully.

I wanted someone to check whether I was injured after a fall.

I wanted my son to care enough to come downstairs.

Those were not unreasonable expectations.

And I wasn't going to apologize for having them.

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