I used to believe that being part of a family meant there were things you simply had to accept.
The jokes.
The unfair comparisons.
The little requests for help that somehow became permanent responsibilities.
I thought that was what love looked like when people had known you your entire life.
Then came Christmas Eve.
And I finally understood how wrong I had been.
The dining room looked exactly as it did every December.
My mother, Rebecca, had spent most of the afternoon preparing dinner. The roast pork sat in the middle of the table, surrounded by dishes of stuffing and vegetables.
There was apple cider warming in the kitchen.
The good china was out.
My mother only used those plates on Christmas. She always said ordinary days weren't important enough for them.
I had helped her with the preparations.
I had carried dishes from the kitchen, arranged the glasses, and cleaned the counters after she finished cooking.
Nobody had asked me to.
I had simply done it.
That was how things worked in our house.
I noticed Sebastian before I noticed anything else.
My younger brother was sitting comfortably in his chair, holding his wrist up so the light would catch his new watch.
He had received it from our parents.
It was expensive.
He had already explained that twice.
“Look at the face on this thing.”
He turned his wrist toward me.
“Nice,” I said.
He smiled.
“Dad really came through this year.”
My father, Arthur Montgomery, gave him an approving look.
My mother smiled too.
Then it was time to exchange presents.
I had bought gifts for everyone.
Nothing extravagant, but I had spent time choosing each one.
I knew what my father liked. I knew which things made my mother happy. I even found something for Sebastian despite knowing he would probably make a joke about it.
When my turn came, my mother handed me a small package.
I opened it.
A white mug.
There were four words printed on the side.
Dare to fly.
I turned it around in my hands.
“That's sweet.”
Sebastian started laughing.
“Honestly, that's perfect for you.”
I looked at him.
He was still grinning.
My father didn't tell him to stop.
My mother busied herself with arranging the wrapping paper.
I placed the mug beside my plate.
I didn't want to ruin Christmas over a present.
At least, that was what I told myself.
Dinner continued.
We talked about ordinary things.
Sebastian mentioned something about his car. My father asked about his plans for the coming year.
My mother asked whether he was still considering another business idea.
He said he was.
Nobody questioned whether he could afford it.
Nobody asked him how he intended to support himself.
When I mentioned a campaign I had completed that morning, Sebastian barely looked up.
“What kind of campaign?”
“An online advertising project.”
He made a face.
“Still doing that?”
“Yes.”
He laughed quietly.
I took a drink of water.
I had been working since five that morning.
I had delivered the finished campaign before noon, exactly when my client needed it.
But there was no point explaining that.
To Sebastian, a computer and an internet connection meant I spent my days playing around.
To my father, a job was something he could understand without asking questions.
And to my mother, my work was useful whenever she needed money.
That last part was the one I had spent years refusing to think about.
After dinner, my father placed his napkin beside his plate.
I recognized the movement.
He did it whenever he wanted to make an announcement.
“Chloe, your mother and I have discussed something.”
My mother lowered her eyes.
I stopped cutting my food.
“What is it?”
Dad looked directly at me.
“You're twenty-five now.”
I waited.
“You need to start building a life of your own.”
I glanced at my mother.
She was looking at her plate.
Dad continued.
“We want you to begin moving your belongings out on the twenty-sixth.”
For a moment, I thought I had misunderstood him.
I looked from him to her.
“Are you telling me I have to leave?”
He sighed.
“Don't make this bigger than it needs to be.”
I felt something tighten in my chest.
Three years.
That was how long I had been helping around that house while trying to build my own career.
Three years of making myself available whenever something needed doing.
And now my father was discussing my departure as if he were reminding me about a household chore.
My mother finally spoke.
“We just think it's time for you to become more independent.”
She gave me a small, uncomfortable smile.
I looked at her.
“Independent?”
Sebastian laughed.
“That's a good one.”
He leaned back in his chair.
“She spends the whole day sitting with her computer.”
“I work.”
He raised his eyebrows.
“Sure.”
“I'm serious.”
“Writing things online doesn't make it a real career.”
My father chuckled.
My mother joined him.
I looked down.
Three people.
Three different ways of making me feel small.
I didn't argue.
I had spent too many years trying to convince them that my work mattered.
I was tired of explaining something they had already decided not to respect.
But the part that hurt wasn't the argument about my career.
It was the announcement.
They had made a decision about where I would live without asking me anything.
And my mother had known about it.
She had known before dinner.
Possibly before that afternoon.
Yet she had still handed me a mug about flying.
I wondered whether she had thought it was funny.
Or whether she simply hadn't cared.
“That's all?”
My father looked at me.
“What?”
“That's what you wanted to tell me?”
He nodded.
“You're an adult, Chloe. You have to understand.”
I looked at the white mug beside my plate.
Dare to fly.
For the first time, I wondered whether leaving was the only thing they had ever wanted me to learn.
And whether they had ever considered what I had been doing for them.
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