PART 14 – I Had Spent Two Years Trying to Rebuild Our Lives, but I Was Finally Learning Not to Measure Myself by Grant’s Money

The next few days were quiet.

I tried to return to our ordinary routine.

I helped Nolan get ready for school.

I checked his belongings.

I prepared what we needed for the day.

There were still bills waiting.

There were still things I couldn't afford.

But I refused to let the courtroom become the only thing Nolan remembered about that week.

One evening, he brought his blue shirt to me.

"Can you wash this?"

I looked at the fabric.

The little moon was still intact.

"Of course."

He watched me examine the stains.

"Are they going to think I'm dirty again?"

I stopped.

That question hurt.

I put the shirt down and looked at him.

"Listen to me, sweetheart."

He looked up.

"There's nothing wrong with you."

He nodded, but I could tell he was still thinking about it.

"Clothes can get stained. That doesn't make someone bad."

He looked at the moon.

"I like this shirt."

"I know."

I smiled.

"And you can keep wearing it."

He seemed relieved.

I washed it carefully.

This time, I didn't scrub the fabric until my hands hurt.

I simply did what I could.

Looking back, I realized how much I had allowed other people's opinions to control my feelings.

I had started seeing every small imperfection as another reason someone might judge me.

A late bill.

A worn pair of shoes.

A shirt that needed another wash.

I couldn't live like that forever.

Nolan needed a mother who could reassure him.

Not one who spent every night worrying about what strangers might say.

That evening, we ate together.

He told me about school.

I listened.

For a little while, things felt ordinary again.

And ordinary was something I had missed.

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